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There we were dying of frustration.
saying "lord lead me not into temptation". but i've become so tired of this loneliness.

UN Ambassador for Sembawang

: Name: fitrah; Location: Singapore

pretty much enjoys listening to brit-rock for now, although my heart still beats for the likes of those legendary rock and roll sounds (guitar heroes has tonnes of them, god bless). planning to take a class 2B motorcycle license too, take part in Amazing Race for a free backpacking trip around the world and finally, psycho myself that commitments in relationships are possible, hmm, yes.

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Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 11:20 PM

If you put truth above your own desires
And value those as friends who feel the same
If you take pride in things that you've accomplished
And when you're wrong, stand up and take the blame
If you can understand your limitations
And not waste time on tasks beyond your scope
But take the future as a brand new challenge
That you can meet with confidence and hope
If you can listen to those who would advise you
And then judge for yourself just what is right
If you can keep in touch with all about you
And settle differences without a fight
If you can find delight in simple pleasures
And see the rainbow, not the falling rain
If you can lose and never give up trying
Believing that there's nothing done in vain
If you can staunchly stick by your convictions
And not let others set your goals for you
If you can be as practical as need be
And still remember sometimes dreams come true
If you can live the life that you believe in
And trust your judgment and maturity
Then you'll be not just happy and successful,
But the worthwhile person you are meant to be.
~E. M. Gerus

In the future, where would I be?

Sunday, June 28, 2009, 12:50 AM

Sometimes in life, you think you thought right the things that you thought about, until you come across a juncture where life smacks you right in the face and things just weren't as clear as before. I think back about all these dreams and goals swarming in the head, none of which has a timeline or fixed deadline attach to them. Just, existing like speech bubbles in my mind that can burst at any moment when the will to hold on to it vaporizes one day. So is it better to be that ambitious person with life plans waiting to be realized or this laid-back person who accepts whatever comes along and changes her life plans accordingly? This is a wtf moment to ponder about. Ok, yes, less vulgarity would do me good.

It is only a rosebud,
A flower of God's design.
But I couldn't unfold the petals,
With these clumsy hands of mine.
The secret of unfolding the flowers,
Is not known to anyone,
God opens this flower so sweetly,
But in my hands they die.
If I cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I have the wisdom,
To unfold this life of mine?
So I'll trust in God for leading,
Each moment of my day,
I will look to God for his guidance,
Each step of the way.
The pathway that lies before me,
Only God knows.
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose.

Monday, June 15, 2009, 12:28 AM

It's hard to believe that I've lived 20 years in this world, having done the things that I've done, constantly questioning the meaning and purpose of my existence as a single entity amidst the billions of humans inhabiting this planet. The human spirit when tried and tested in the face of adversity, really is something commendable, which I feel is what makes each of us feel significant in our own ways. The challenges and life-changing moments that each of us go through, different and of varying degrees, yet when we reflect back at the tough shit that we had to endure, we're amazed we even manage to survive it and sometimes more amazed by the fact that that event happened to begin with.

We all have our dreams; some of us, like yours truly, don't exactly have a goal in mind because come what may, but ultimately there are things in life which we all want to do or try out eventually. I am no longer bothered by people who are (unnecessarily) troubled by the fact that I do not meet their expectations of taking the tried and tested route of becoming a lawyer or going to business school or even FASS for that matter or their other expectations of me being a good girl and wear more conservatively and behave more appropriately. Hah, all the teenagehood nonsense that I have sifted out of my life. People should start realising that there are things out there much much worse than such a typical middle-classy way of thinking and see things from a different perspective. Then again, I have nothing to prove to these people. No this is not to offend anyone, but simply just to make some people understand that life doesn't need to be what people tell us it should be.

And my beautiful days have been coloured by beautiful moments shared with the beautiful people in my life. It gets hell tiring going out everyday, doing work everyday (despite the hols) and enjoying life everyday, but it makes me happy and content knowing that it doesn't really matter what I'm doing or who I am with, what's important is that I am actually so far satisfied by how seemingly productive my holidays have been, by my own standards of course.

Until then, here's to more enjoyable moments in the future. We have all chosen to take the paths that we took, be it out of necessity or wants, but a choice nonetheless and let's all make the best out of it. (:

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